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ยท whimsical-coconut ยท Aspects of Psychology ยท Not published yet

Animals of Psychology

The animals we see ourselves in and how we meet them

General ยท Identity ยท Psychology

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ยท games ยท Aspects of Psychology ยท Not published yet

Games of Psychology

The characters we become and the roles we choose

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ยท music ยท Aspects of Psychology ยท Not published yet

Songs of Psychology

The songs we recognise ourselves in

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ยท colour ยท Aspects of Psychology ยท Not published yet

Colours of Psychology

The good and evil carried by every colour

Intense ยท Identity ยท Psychology

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ยท music ยท Source of the Universe ยท Not published yet

Songs of Primes

A musical adventure

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ยท math ยท Source of the Universe ยท Not published yet

The Billionth Prime

A study on primes

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ยท space ยท Source of the Universe ยท Not published yet

History of Primes

A short history on primes and me

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ยท garden ยท The Martyr and the Fool ยท Not published yet

What Does Trust Look Like?

What comes after survival and suspicion

Intense ยท Depression ยท Trust

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ยท circuit ยท The Martyr and the Fool ยท Not published yet

What Is Power?

Who can act, control, protect, harm, or leave

Intense ยท Power ยท Trust ยท Unsavoury

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ยท storm ยท The Martyr and the Fool ยท Not published yet

The Post-Phase

Rest, recovery, and the aftermath

Intense ยท Depression ยท Suicide ยท Unsavoury

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ยท ruins ยท The Martyr and the Fool ยท Not published yet

The Tower of Babel

A retrospective on language, ambition, and collapse

Intense ยท Faith ยท Unsavoury

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ยท games ยท The Martyr and the Fool ยท Not published yet

Jeans, Integrity and Monkeys

JIM and the clown show

Intense ยท Depression ยท Unsavoury

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ยท annotated ยท The Martyr and the Fool ยท Not published yet

The Pre-Phase

The events leading up to my employment

Intense ยท Depression ยท Unsavoury

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ยท games ยท The Martyr and the Fool ยท Not published yet

Consolidation

Bringing everything together

Intense ยท Depression ยท Suicide ยท Unsavoury

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ยท whimsical-coconut ยท Not published yet

Project Coconut

A sensible question, a colourful coconut, and a hamster who knows too much

Sensitive ยท Identity

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ยท dance ยท Behind the Hero ยท Not published yet

In Motion

Letting the body speak in more than one rhythm

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ยท annotated ยท Behind the Hero ยท Not published yet

Annotations

The contradictions, corrections, and notes in the margins

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ยท comics ยท Behind the Hero ยท Not published yet

Between Panels

Finding meaning in the moments between moments

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ยท photography ยท Behind the Hero ยท Not published yet

The Frame

What attention keeps and every frame leaves out

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ยท games ยท Behind the Hero ยท Not published yet

Save Point

Why rest and starting again are part of progress

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ยท music ยท Behind the Hero ยท Not published yet

The Mix

The feelings that can share a soundtrack

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ยท math ยท Behind the Hero

The Equation

Holding the variables without forcing a solution

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ยท circuit ยท Behind the Hero

The Circuit

Following recurring signals through the system

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ยท coding ยท Behind the Hero

Source Code

Reading and revising a system that is still alive

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ยท garden ยท Behind the Hero

Moon Garden

How the garden grew

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ยท kintsugi ยท Behind the Hero

Beauty

Finding beauty in the breaks and joins

Sensitive ยท Depression ยท Dreams ยท Identity

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ยท shattered ยท Behind the Hero

Self Reflection

The truths reflected by a shattered mirror

Sensitive ยท Depression ยท Suicide ยท Identity ยท Dreams

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ยท storm ยท Behind the Hero

The Storm

How I learned to describe the weather from inside it

Intense ยท Depression ยท Suicide ยท Dreams ยท Faith

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ยท ruins ยท Behind the Hero

The Ruins

What remains, what changes, and what keeps growing

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ยท storm ยท Behind the Hero

From War to War

How I found my name.

Intense ยท Depression ยท Suicide ยท Identity

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ยท games

Nothing Learned Is Lost

Progress between attempts. Nothing learned is lost.

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